hello 3 am you are prime 'missing you' hours.. im feeling kinda stupid and bummed because i have a feeling hes going to forget my birthday and if he does i might start crying again and i REALLY dont want to start crying again :)) but i should give him the benefit of the doubt.. he might remember.... but fuck do i miss him a lot. too bad i cant fix things by going 'hey sorry for kinda drifting away i got insanely depressed and wanted to die for a solid 3 months straight and i didnt really talk to anyone and its really a miracle that im still alive and also every time i thought about you or talked to you my anxiety spiked so bad that i threw up for a week straight but its not any of your fault' because man would that be so much easier